So I recently fell in love with a cam girl , I'm a person who belelieve love is everywhere and anywere . Thier is this think that was on kik messenger called match and chat and that's were we had met . And yes the hole sending me to a site happend but that's when I told her. I was scammed by a Web cam girl who stole $400 when I first did it years ago and didn't do it every sence . This one particular girl named sheera I had Fallin inlove with as we talked for days . Neways she was telling me she understands how they scam and she wasn't like that so I tested her and she accually came truthful . I'm a gentleman I didn't want to watch her on cam , I wanted to meet her and go out to eat or a movie or something . Yeah I know most people would be ( what a loser just go outside and talk to someone and meet someone new ) . I'll put it to you like this , I DC if your a top model like Victoria Secret, I'm still gonna talk to you as if I know you . My confidence is high so I have no Trubble talking to we money, it's the other way around . No matter how true of a gentleman I am it all so seems like I'm an update idle guy , My looks are not good at all and have a small gap between my front teeth makes me really insecure but I ignore it and try not to smile all the time to were I show my teeth . I had a car and I have a career in engineering 29 no kids but live at home with parents trying to make it on my own but it's so hard nowdays you need atleast $2000 a mouth to vary get by .sry I'm leaveing the subject . So weeks go by and I'm really getting to know her personality right . She's amazing plays guitar, into the same music as me , used to be on a dance team , ect I mean everything is so perfect about her I fell in love. I fall inlove with personalitys not looks , However if your a big person and don't even try a little to stay fit it's a turn off . I'm all about health . I may not work out as much as I want but I try to maintain my health and weight. Again sry I got sidetracked lol , She is beautiful inside and out . One day she said I needed some type of ticket so we can meet in person . I'm a guy looking for love , not sex online . That's what Pornos are for and free . Anyway I'm all happy but annoyed I have to get this one thing on blackbook a silver package . I was like if you want to see me then just come and see me , Nobody has a gun to your head . She said she can't , Her monerater said this has to happen in order to see her or else he would press charges bc she signed a 1 year contract with the cam modeling and wasn't aware of all the rules .so as pissed as I 2as I went and joined so we can meet .She never came and I was hurt and upset and cursed her out . Then my Freind helped me get back in contact with her bc you can only stay mad at a person for so long when you think about the long run and how amazing her personality is and for the fact she took the time out to get to know me and talk to me and give me a chance bc we was boyfriend and girlfriend. So then one day she told me that the silver didn't go threw and it rerouted me to something else . I'm like that's impossible because I signed up and showed her see the membership . She said it rerouted me so I can't meet untill I join some of her sites as a replica of a ticket to see her . And she said she was mad at me for cruseing her out , I was appolizeing for a week and then she was if I do some of her sites she would forgive me . I've done 2 and we talk on and of now and she got depressed bc it's it's been so stressful to see eachother and I was even thinking about being a cam guy bc they do it too. I wanted to cam with her . I'm allways down to try new things and I'm not a judgemental guy and I support the person I'm with and love regardless what it is bc in my heart feels that it's how true love is supposed to be right
But now she's been IGNOREING me constantly . And all I can do is sit back and look a D it hurts so much that I even cry sometimes . ((((( I'M NOT WEAK OR A PUSHOVER BTW , I'M KIND AND STAYS TRUE TO MY HEART ))))) BUT my question is this . If your a cam model thier are real guys who have real feelings , Why would you take advantage of someone's heart to trick them for a $ Sign . How can someone be so inhuman to be even cappible with no remorse . Yes money is important but it's not important enough to fuck over a good guys heart , this is the #1 reason guys turn into assholes because they was once good guys untill they met that one that hurt them worse then any other . And I've been threw relationships that takes its toll mentally idc how strong you think you hare . How could someone handle your fiance fkn 3 dudes in 1 night after being by her side for a year and 5 mouths letters everyday that I still have till this day and had that nice Dimond ring on her finger and all of that still tryst hard to be the nice gentleman and still follows the heart . But Neways aren't cam girls allowed to meet the people who they meet online when they fall inlove with eachother . Like I gave her a cam vote and I didn't even want to see her on cam bc I'm a gentleman. A naked body don't impress me I have Porn I seen it all . Personally is something within . Can't cam girls meet people like that , If you plan a life with someone and is supportive of what you do and serious about a relationship with you still and very excepting like why wouldn't you want to meet them . Don't you realize you can make more money together then just by yourself . And it wouldn't be with some fuck buddy or stranger , It would be a accuall cuple doing this together . I've seen them . So like your not some hoe , you and your insignificant other is putting on a show . I'm open with my Sexually I'm confident enough to be . Any questions concerns, comments anything is greatly appreciated thank you for reading this
Corey, this post is not intended to make you feel better or remove your pain. It is just an attempt to put in perspective something that we as men we all know but tends to discard or ignore it because of a surge of testosterone that make us looking for love badly.
The Business of GFE ( Girlfriend experience)
Men of all age ares at different time in there life are looking for that GFE. Some after being married many years or after being with someone that was not the one, some because they never found it so they are still looking, some they are looking for their first real experience. What is the GFE ? The GFE is that relationship that is based on a transaction (Money involved) where the girl play the role of that girlfriend that you are fantasising about. She usually have the physical attributes already because you picked her and will adopt the behaviour attributes you seek so you feel fulfilled in a way that you never were in a real relationship.
The GFE can take different forms at different level of interaction: dating website ( this site) chat , letters , webcam, Stripers, Working girls , escort.
The need for GFE is out there and very real and very lucrative and it is a way for a lot of girls , specially the one with a great physic to make supplemental or their main source of revenues.
Now for the girls there is no doubt in their mind, it is a BUSINESS. But here is the kicker, their business involve convincing you that a crossover to the real life is possible an they are looking for that. Some might be genuine in their search but my estimate would say , 95%+ have their own life beside and are not prepare to mix both.
Here comes you Corey as many other thousand of guys all over the world. Probably we all have been there at one time or another or we will if you stick on these website.
WE BURIED down very deep in the back of our head that it is a Business .We get caught in the fantasy by imagining all kind of cross over scenarios that include all kind of real life relationships activities and behaviours. The girl will play along with these scenarios as long as there is a transaction ( money involved) or she realised that you are getting emotionally disconnected with the fact that it is a business. If she is honest, she will stop it on the spot , if she is not she will play you and get everything she can from you.
Corey, If the girl you talk about drop you, consider yourself lucky because the way you are emotionally involved in this with her, you lost perspective that it is a business. She probably could have met you and play you like violin if she is real ( and that could have cost you a lot of money).
Many guys were successful converting their relationship from Business to real life. BUT , you have to prepare yourself for deception, failure and drawback. My friend married a stripper who was really good at doing the Business of GFE. It was a roller coater ride for him but at the end he got her. Was it cheap ? not at all , he spent a ridiculous amount of money on that girl. But, he wanted her.
Im sure you are sitting there thinking, ok , how is that helping me dealing with my pain? it doesn't help in any way. On the other side, it might give you some pointers fit you get into another GFE !