I told my other half tonight about how lucky Tim was to be in the arms of his loved one tonight and she agreed. It is terribly (and sexually) frustrating to have a very strong connection with someone and not be with them, to hold them, kiss them. Thank God for the telephone invention which is an interim life-saver. ;)
believe me, I know exactly how you feel. Its hard on me and my girl, bad. Now that we have everything planned, everything is finally all lined up, were just playing the waiting game with the departure date. Its wearing on both of us. I keep thinking just imagine what its gonna be like when we finally make contact. My nerves are going to be out of control the last week before I go.
your head will have bald patches where you have been pulling it out. your eye lids will be propped up by matchsticks revealing blood shot eyes. Pale as a ghost and as skinny as a rake having lost the appetite to eat. It maybe worth wearing a carnation so she recognizes you. ;)
I met my ex via the web, having once knew her at school upteem years ago and had a brief lustful affair. After spending weeks writing and talking, meeting for the first hour was the most awkward separating and trying to identify the person you think you know and the person infront of you. If you can survive that initial confusion (often with a cunning strategy) there's no reason why the two perspectives can not become one quickly and when it does - fireworks!
Yeah, this waiting game is exciting and challanging. Not leaving to July. Meanwhile in my mind and emotions I am trying to compose a image, or a whole person, out of this girl who has captivated me without my ever being with her in person!
I am trying to fit togetherLucy in my mind throughreconciling her letters with her photos with her phone conversations. It's like her letters are so logical and practical while also kind, her pictures so sweet and her voice... I was not really prepared for the strong accent which has a weighty quality to it. Her voice is really gentle but it seems weird for me to have such kindness and laughter and sighs contained within the package of the Eastern European accent. (Her primary language is Romanian). She speaks English well - and is getting better - but I actually love her voice when we talk.
Anyhow I know that when I am with her she will be finally all composed in my heart and head ; as I can see her body language and nuances of her expression, and the frequency of her smile. And touch her - my God! to touch her. I don't even mean seduce her- I mean just to stroke her cheek, hold her hand - feel her against me!
Unless of course she finds me to be a brute or troll or worse! Or who knows maybe I am composing a woman in my imagination that will be completely unlike the real Lucy! Oh heart and head(s) don't betray me now.
I think it is normal to be confused,may picture them as perfect and put them on a pedestal, but perfection is boring, and so long as most of how you picture them to be, is there, than you are a lucky man
The bottom line is she's just flesh and bone like you or I. And probably just as nervous about feeling rejected, maybe more so, regardless of external features - the mind is a funny and insecure thing for most women. So savour the moment as one of adolescent insecurity that we never lose and let your self shine through. I can think of few scarier moments to experience in your life. A visit to the dentist or hospital are walks in the park by comparison. I actually like the fact that we have disagreed or should I say misunderstood each other on one occasion that has caused mixed emotions for the reason that it shows how we deal with the next level of the relationship and strength of character once the honeymoon period has passed.
I agree with all of you. I especially agree that they are just as nervous as us. I'll give you a pretty good example. I live in southern florida, so naturally i'm in the sun alot and I have a dark complexion. My sweetheart just told me the other day that she started going to the solarium(dont know what that is, but i'm guessing its like a tanning salon) so she can get a darker skin complexion for me. She said she wants to look beautiful for me. I thought that was sweet as hell, even though it dosent matter if she has a tan or not, I don't care either way. But I do think that qualifies her as being pretty anxious, just like us.
Weight for many girls is also an issue and when I heard that mine hasn't beeen eating because she wants to look good for when I arrive, all I wanted to do is feed her, by hand and with a blindfold, s-l-o-w-l-y ;), it really doesn't matter unless you're overweight in the first place, but even then there would be no contact unless the boy didn't have an issue with it.
It's seemingly impossible for either sex of the same species to avoid pruning themselves to be what they think the other wants them to be for fear of rejection and it's the most prettiest that surprisingly have the most insecurities. In Tim's absence I will speak for him and say how totally secure he feels in himself. lol
Good morning everyone :o)))))
It's that VERY lucky Bs`ard writing from Omck Siberia :o))
Arrived safely, everything going brilliantly :o)))
Natash` is as much as I had hoped for and more :o))
If anyone needs to come to Omck, let me know as I have made many good friends here already and will happily pass anyone my list of contacts :o))
Having a great time, dont want to come back .... Ever !!!!! ;o)
Ice on the river, but outside its like spring in the UK !! Not at all cold :o)
I might not have another chance to drop by, but I just wanted to say thanks to everyone for the messages that were posted after I left England :o))
All the best you everyone, and Good Luck to you Jet when you leave in a few days :o)))
Nice one Tim. I imagine there are a few of us here eager to be in the same position but having to wait. Best wishes to yourself and Natasha and the rest of your visit.
How quickly time flies when you're having fun. Before you know it, it's all over and back to 'ol blighty. I already understand the wish not to return and I haven't been yet. But (and don't tell anyone), if I had to move across there in the short term - I would do that - if it meant solving the distance problem.
Tim please put my girl in your luggage and sneek her home to me.
This will save me a lot of time and money LOL -I hope all is well and I wish I were you right now.I long for the day to be with my lady.
Its nice to see things are working out great for you.
Talk to you when you return
Tim - Great to here from you again and thanks for the pleasant wish that my trip goes nicely as well.
The plot has thickened - as my "Other" girl ("D") has called me to tell me that my "First" girl ("O") has called her and inquired as to whether there was something going on between us.
Tim will understand what that means.
(Though maybe not because we are both guys and even I don't know what it means).
Meanwhile I have thre who have given me phone numbers etc and seem anxious as hell to meet me. (My backup - in case all else turns to toast.)